personal growth

so as i sit and listen to my relationship self-help podcast-hmmm now i am trying to think about what i am hearing and process it and apply it to my own life.

so i am embarking and engaging in a wonderful adventure with an amazing man-so like most people you think -hey don't mess this up

so then you think about all the mistakes you made before and how you want to do everything you can do to make this time right and lasting and make this person happy and making sure you are not sacrificing your needs or beliefs

so i know i've made major mistakes in my past-one that even lead to an "I-do!" BUT i think with every experience there is an opportunity for growth-
i try not to think of things as a mistake but as a beautiful mistake because there is some beauty to be found in everything-

ive had to learn a lot-but in the meantime i have learned a lot about myself
i realize as the youngest as the baby-i was ummmm used to things going my way and everyone loving and adoring me and acting accordingly to "princess april"
but i realize now its not totally realistic- i mean i do kinda still expect it from those around me but not like i used

but more importantly ive learned some important lessons-
ive learned COMPROMISE-that was a hard one-i wanted it my way or you can hit the highway-gosh that was a BIG pill to swallow-if i knew that and understood it like i am learning to NOW-it would have saved me heartbreak, heartache, and and headache, but hey that's hindsight 20/20-and if i knew it and had all the answers then my life would be horribly perfect and hey WHO really likes perfection....or is there even such a thing as perfection....or is that an illusion or a self-created, self imposed utopia that merely exists in our minds?

i'm learning to listen-as the youngest and as a lady i always want to get the last word in, and sometimes in my effort to do so i miss the message or the need that someone is trying to convey

patience-oh my gosh-an everyday battle- learning to not make rash decisions-learning to take a deep breath wait for the calm and know that "this too shall pass"-damn i wish i knew that one-for those who have never seen that side of me-i can be a hot head-i can get mad work myself up and then just start cutting the fat, and often times when the blood is done splattering and i am doing damage control-i think how did i get here or why didn't i count to 10 and then react and unfortunately i am a person once i hang myself out there i stick with my guns EVEN if they are wrong (yes i am working on the humble pie thing)

i have learned that no one is perfect but there is a person perfect for me-and that to me means knowing, loving, and accepting someone for exactly as they come because LORD knows if you love me and can deal with me in any capacity you probably deserve the NOBEL PEACE prize or something comparable!

i know i'm not perfect and i just want what everyone wants to be happy and loved, but i have realized that so much of that starts from within and in my past i have put so much on my plate that i was unhappy and i in turn lashed out on everyone around me,
which is why now i am so content with having SO little on my plate

for almost 3 years straight-i worked a 12+ hour day (because everyone knows i was an overtime queen) so i worked my regular 80 hours plus an additional 60+, and I drove 1.5 each way to work so that totalled 3 hours a day-i don't know how I even made it-well i do and i am thankful for the angels that watched over me-existing on 3 hours of sleep-i was a zombie
im glad that's in the past but when i was in the thick of it-all i saw was disposable income and not dealing with other stuff i had going on

so its nice now to work a 8 hour day and enjoy life, enjoy the roses

ive also learned to talk to those around me, i realized one day i DO NOT know it all-as much as i would have liked to believe it-i dont and so i am learning to rely on others that i love and have wisdom to share-i enjoy bouncing ideas off of them and seeing whether i was way off or pretty much on the mark

soooo everyday is a journey and everyday i learn something new and i just hope in all my relationships i can be better at listening, loving, and laughing!

field trip

so yes-they are allowing me out the building-i'm going on a field trip-i plan to hop on the bus put on my shades and shut my eyes-my ipod has been loaded and i plan to do no talking-just sleeping-

i will be away today so there will be no blogging going on-sorry folks-but duty calls!

if anyone is lacking humor or entertainment you can refer to my brother Josh-he puts on a great show!!

eheheh

Tuesday-2day

let's see today is shaping up pretty good-the weather has been Africana hot-which is a bit much for the likes of me-don't like feeling sweaty and i hate sweat on my forehead oh wait no its worse when its on your back or when it starts to drip down your back-YUCK

and let's be honest when its 90+ degrees out sweating is inevitable even for a cool princess like me-so let it be known that I April Janelle H-am already counting down til winter-hehehehehe

i'm dreaming of hot chocolate and fireplaces-
sorry for all of you hot blooded-summer loving folks-

although i must say this morning i slept in an extra 30 minutes (YUP til 4am) and got up shaved my long legs (in record time-and i have no chunks of skin missing) and i wore a dress no hose to work-i do have closed toe shoes however!
But it was nice to feel a bit summery-

tomorrow i have a field trip so i will be gone from 7ish to 2-so i will try to get a quick one in when i first arrive to work

well my month is almost over-and the warm sweltering heat is imminent and so are the barbecues and more importantly CORN ON THE COB-I cannot wait!

I have a new recipe for Corn on the Cob (which mind you is best cooked on the grill still in the husks) BUT its got cilantro and butter on it and i have one for cilantro lime butter!! YUM!!!!


i've got to get my butt in gear because the summer can potentially be the downfall for the likes of those like me with a food friendly appetite-all the yummy delectables-burgers with cheese oozing down-mmm did someone say colby!! the steaks-the ribs-the chicken-the corn-more corn-the brats!!!

and we won't even talk about dessert-hey for anyone " in the know" did baskin robbins and ben and jerry's have their free ice cream scoop night yet?? I hope i didn't miss it!!

ok enough dwelling on food-for now!!!

not for the easily nauseated

ok so last week my BMitch was saying how she was basking in her womanly curves and ways and was completely seeing her glow all the way here in DC and i must admit i was a bit envious!

today however Bean-I am feeling a similar sentiment-i am feeling AMAZING
i feel so lucky to be where i am
i feel so lucky to have the people in my life-i have THE best friends-who I don't even consider friends-i will just say I have THE best family-those who are blood and those who choose to be in my life

i honestly could not ask for better people-i LOVE the relationship I have with my Mommy now-I love that she is still such an involved M-and even though she always worries that she is overbearing-i LOVE that she is still SUCH a Mom-and I wouldn't have it any other way!

I am SO loving my relationship with my siblings. my sis provides such great sound advice-she has truly become a sounding board for me as i've gotten older.
my brother-well he brings humor and keeps me current on EVERYTHING that I normally would not think of.
and to the MY other brother-i must say i have seen him and the rest of them MORE this year then ever before and i can ALWAYS count on him to be happy to see me and give big hugs-he's getting married in a few weeks-i'm so happy that he found someone that makes him happy and will deal with him :) but i love that he and i are close and i think in general i am staying in better touch with all the New Yorkers!!!
i dont have any favorites-everyone is so different and brings something so different-Reg is by far though-the sensitive one-hehehehe


of course i am still a daddy's girl and even though sometimes the man is lotion resistant-i adore him!

and that's not even mentioning everyone else-K adds such humor to my life and Bean-wow I can't even begin with that one-but truly just EVERYONE in my life-i'm so thankful for everyone

and not to forget the other source of my joy-i have finally found the most magnificent man-i know it sounds cheesy and its not because i know he'll read my blog BUT its more-i am so so so glad i met him-he has restored the way i view relationships and feel about ....LOVE
it feels so safe and so right
i dare to even say-he makes all the BS i went through before him worth it because i am at a place of such happiness and continuous growth-so many laughs endless smiles and a sense of security

well for those who have NOT thrown up yet-thanks for being in my life :)

Happy Monday

Good morning all! and happy happy monday

it is truly a beautiful day out already and its ONLY 5AM-it's incredible-my ride into work was so warm and ever so summer like-just peaceful

i had a great fantabulous weekend-friday i went and saw Obsessed with R-good movie-some parts were pretty umm unrealistic-but hey-all in all i was on a hot date so :)

then memory lapse-friday was cool-ok now i cant remember all the highlights of my weekend-BUT it was GREAT!

yesterday was wonderful-woke up leisurely and then R and I went to breakfast-just FYI-the Cinnamon cream hotcakes at Bob Evans are just as good as the regular Cinnamon ones!!

but yesterday was just a cool laid back day-i made some lasagna last night-oh oh i TRIED to go to yoga but when i got there they were not open-hmmm not sure what was up with that BUT-i will try again today

oh oh we had the top down on the "man" car yesterday-hmmmm let's just say it was tooo hot for that-i had sweat in places that i didn't know even sweat---but hey i looked hot-literally and actually!!


soooo i woke up feeling GREAT this morning-feeling loved and ready to take on the week-i hope you all can feel as good as me!!!

wazzzup peoples

so i was too mad to blog yesterday BUT today I am feeling on TOP of the world-not even just on top BUT on top with some killer heels on!!

yea-can't stop me!!
I tried to call J-Bear this morning and sing to him-but he didn't answer his phone-oh well his loss

then i called Piedmont and woke up my Dad (oops) and Mommy was somewhere downstairs with her lil monster aka the baby!!

sooooooooooo it's FRIDAY-yippee skippee
things are coming together-i had a Eureka moment and my brain started processing and then BAM!! nope there was no smoke!!! but yup i had productive thoughts and the sparks are sparking!!!

R made an excellent dinner last night-my God Sister was over for her "end of the semester" home cooked meal-so R made her those ribs and some tasty baked beans, and in my attempt to eat healthy i made scallops, BUT then my inner obesity made me cave and eat 3 ribs-oh wait-hey R do I have to count the initial sampler ribs before I went to go get her?

shoot-ok well i won't tally up the # of ribs!!

so my low for yesterday was that SOMEONE shot my tire with a nail gun (my theory) so i have a "aggressive" leak as R said-which means i had NO damn air in my tire this morning!! RATS!!

So we rode in the "man" car with xtra horsepower and xtra testosterone!!

oh oh-yesterday while at my doctor's office i was privy to more of "THOSE" pregnant types with the baby tee's and protruding belly buttons, which up until yesterday I always had an obsession with outty belly buttons-but the chick yesterday killed it-although in my defense i liked them on men...but that's besides the point

oh oh and another thing that pissed me off yesterday-well it was TAKE YOUR KID to work day and guess what-I don't have any kids, not even 1-so here I was looking like the lone ranger-i never really cared before, but since i am at a different age and different point in my life-i felt very envious (of the well behaved kids) of the parents -sighhhhhhhh

ok happy weekend

oh and another good thing-i am a Craigslist junkie now and selling anything and everything, well sorta, but I sold my old dog crate yesterday!!! yea mee!!!

hump day

so let's see-its wednesday and i have successfully gotten up all week without a fight and i have been remarkably on time to work without any static from the "COMMANDER"!

so my field trip was cool yesterday-BUT let me just say this-EVERYONE does not make good teaching/training material.
I appreciate and respect those that know their limitations and do not attempt to try. on my field trip i had the opportunity to shadow someone and i completely respect the guy for NOT trying to see if he could make my eyes roll into the back of my head-he was quiet and reserved and asked if I had any questions!

let's see the allure of the gym did not work yesterday instead i rolled up in my new super big purple on one side/ pink on the other blankie and watched my recorded shoes-then i got inspired and uploaded more pics off my old memory card and emailed them to my fans (victims)!

hopefully today is looking better for the cardio and workout scene-

ummm what else!!!! i go home in 2 more weeks-yea me!!!
right now i am at my desk with a 2.2L container half filled with blue raspberry lemonade. R laughed at me when I put it in the shopping cart, but every time i make some he's hovering like a fly to a Somalian-dang it that probably was not PC-ok-MY BAD-BUT you get the image :)

so once again one of my food recommendations was well received and confirmed-K went to Target and got the chicken strips that I have been raving about WITH the honey mustard sauce-and i promise you i don't know if Jesus made the sauce himself BUT its just that good and K said it was too so!!!!

ok back to work for now-or maybe its oatmeal time
hey J-bear-do you still have the peanut butter and jelly forward on your phone-that always brightens my day-
if i can find it on youtube-its coming on my blog

field trip day

so today i get to semi go on a field trip-just from 7:45AM-11:30AM-but hey its away from my desk so it could be a field trip to the bathroom and i'd be happy!

so i received a complaint yesterday about the brevity of my blog yesterday so hopefully today i can make it up to you K!

yesterday was rainy dreary and I was zapped so after work i went and saw my kiddies-i colored with my little boy and made my girl write endless amounts of lines stating " i will not laugh at inappropriate comments made in class by other students"! so after she did one whole page-I reviewed it and found that she misspelled a word or two and got lazy and tried to skip lines and everything i told her not to do so i made her start over. sounds mean, but i am there to do more than just play with them-its funny because there are two kids now who are all over the thank yous and pleases now!

let's see after that i trucked it to Maryland to get my hair done and then I headed home and chit chatted with my Mommy on the phone and then I crashed-I feel so revived this morning!

oh side note-can i just say that my irritant of the other day was while I was in Target, #1 I was excited about the Target chicken tenders from the food court, but the line was filled with incompetent shoppers who CLEARLY do not know Target etiquette and should be relegated to shopping at Kmart or Walmart-so after standing in line for 10 minutes I got out to finish my shopping AND *sorry R I already complained about this in the car this morning* so here I am in the baby aisle and this is where the problem began-I understand everyone has different financial situations and in today's economy that is very abundantly clear. BUT when you are pregnant they make maternity clothes and i'm sorry but if you can't afford them, instead of wearing a baby tee-that does not even touch the protruding belly button/dwarf finger-how about you wear one of your man's over sized t-shirts!

i made all attempts to not stare-BUT it was like a train wreck and that stupid striped baby tee was so far up and it wasn't even like it has ridden up and she could pull it back down-NOPE-it was just too darn short!!!

soooo i ask all of you if and when you bear children please try to do the right thing-because Pea in the Pod and the other stores make absolutely CUTE maternity wear!!

On the upside I had fun buying onesies and cute tiny apparel-NOT FOR ME! For a friend!!!

ok good day greetings all

do you KNOW what today is

it's monday...............

much thanks

i feel like such a traitor-all the times my parents tried to get me to try new foods as a kid and i didn't and now R has exposed me to so many yummy things that my parents have been trying to get me to eat all the years-sorry Mom and Dad!

R made salmon burgers the other night and i am just eating mine today for lunch and this is SO good-I mean I would hum but it's kinda rude to do in mixed company but WOW-talk about a tastebuds treat!!!

good job R!!!!

are there really any words to go along with this

http://www.hellocupcakeonline.com/flavors.html

http://www.mrsprindables.com/

http://www.berries.com/

www.lobstergram.com

http://www.cookiedoughcreations.com/

http://www.faygo.com/

http://bmchips.com/

ok LET ME SAY THIS: all these sites-it's ALL Josh's fault-he started on the food kick WAY too early this morning-i think its so much easier to just eat what you want and not think about being healthy!!

fast n furious

yesterday after i demolished a nice tasty Costco Hebrew national (dang it was SO good)-well actually that was a sidebar

but the other day R got the "toy" back-sooo I finally was permitted in it yesterday -let me preface this before anyone gets excited, I WAS NOT IN THE DRIVER'S SEAT-i was in the chump seat-BUT not to take away from it-the car is FAST and the SOUND is LOUD and quite exhilarating!

I can so see myself this summer with my black shades and black heels and jeans a black tank-yup i'll be HOT!

hmmm J-bear-I need a theme song for when I am getting in and out the car-you're my creative other half so -get on it!!

then after the ride AND my Hebrew National we got home and the "baby" was very carefully coddled and put back into its nursery and covered and tucked in for the night!

F-R-I-D-A-Y!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

let's see folks, well it's finally the day we all look forward to-got to sleep late and i got into work at a decent hour-
i am snacking on my oatmeal now (the high fiber kind)

let's see nothing really exciting to talk about-we had leg of lamb for dinner last night and i roasted tomatoes to go along with them.

R and I watched the movie SUPERBAD last night-ummm what WORLD did they live in! That was SOME high school experience-
i hope everyone has a great weekend-the weather is supposed to be nice-hmm Brats sound SO good-oh let me not start thinking about it this early

ok if i have something more productive to share i will make another post
if not toodles

blogging from home suckers!!!

ha ha ha ha!!!! i am at HOME this morning!!
it feels so good.
i woke up and did my usual self diagnosis to see if anything was wrong. went over the usual, fever, itchy eyes, runny nose, cough, congestion, sore throat, you get the drill and then I determined, yes a sore throat/fever would suffice.

so i am off today-although I must admit i woke up at like 7am and had to force myself back into a slumber..
now i'm hungry and my oatmeal is at work, but i will make the best of this situation.
i am going to do my workout DVD and sweat a bit and then i must go fetch some gas before 2:30 pm when R gets back-sooo i guess gas will be a 2:00 activity

but i just wanted to say HA-one more time for those of you who are at work-then again no worries i'll be back tomorrow to wrap up the week

toodles
me

1334 hours

oh my gosh i am SO bored-i think i have searched everything of interest on the internet..how sad is that when you can't think of anything else to google

J has forsaken me for the day in pursuit of food-why cant he just eat at his desk like i do?
it's dreary out too-so a nap sounds very appropriate right about now
but i have to get some cardio in first-too many weddings and parties and appearances over the next few months-don't want people to say-boy i remember when she was really thin, or boy she's not missing any meals

oh look 1337 hours now-i think i will shut down my computer now and try to make a trip to the bathroom-that always kills time-playing in the sink (how sad am i-i know)

its just one of those days-hump WED

R got OUR muscle car back so now i have to break out some hot black outfits to go with OUR toy-I can picture me behind the wheel already! *it's all about the outfit-right M*
:)
later yal

mildly irritated

so i finally broke down and had my nails done on Easter-I normally just do toes-but I figured it was Easter-so for my Mom I had my talons trimmed down to a very short length, and I just simply had clear polish put on.. they looked nice on Sunday-today is WEDNESDAY- so WHY in the hell (sorry Mom) do only a few of my nails have clear polish left on them??
I am not a Tomboy-I no longer have a gun to fiddle with, so my nails should still LOOK like i paid someone to do them and NOT like I did them myself!

ahhh-so mildly agitated

red bull-sugar free

so right now i am lacking any motivation-dont feel like writing, i think i will drink a sugar free red bull to make myself better
so i had hopes of taking friday off as payback to R-but then as i was debating it on the way to work this morning-one day turned into monday, tuesday, and wednesday, and then i was like wow-i can lounge and be lazy all day-nap and eat all day, BUT then i figured i would save my days for something productive.....maybe friday-hmmmmm

april showers

ha-the only time i actually like that phrase
so today in my part of the world its raining and dreary-i'd much rather be in the bed.
R is still snoozing right now-on the pretense of "waiting for the cable/phone/some guy"! yea sounds like pish posh to me too
because i was the one who had to brave the rain and wet drive in to work while R snoozed no make that SNORED-before i could even shut the door to go down the stairs the very clear unmistakable sound of a chain saw, no make that a baby hippo with a cold, (ok so what i can exaggerate-i'm the victim here remember-ME-at work)
so i stomped down all the stairs to leave *clearly it made NO difference*
and as much as i dragged my feet I was the second person in to work-RATS!

so let's see-that's how my morning has started-no complaints-maybe i'll take friday off so i can sleep in while he gets up for work!!

i wonder who will email me today-let's see my Mom was busy and slacking on the email yesterday's, Joshykins fell off and was inconsistent with his IM's and I guess everyone else was BUSY!

It's called multi-tasking people and prioritizing and time management!!
if you manage your time well with work...=MORE time to talk to ME!!!

funny thought

So I used to have aspirations to be heroin chic thin BUT my new one is I want to be "Joshua/frail/manorexic" thin!!
heheh
I crack myself up!

response to my comments

Yes I can complain about the slackers even when I am spending time on here writing -so Ha Mitchy-it's just what I do, and I like to think of this as time I use to diffuse my brain because when you are darn near genius (hahah I know) my brain is ALWAYS at work so this is like "brain yoga" for me!!

Hey Man Barbie-I hope you've got a paper or something due that will justify you being in law school-just dont turn out to be a sleazy lawyer-stay on the up and up!!

BMitch-my hat goes off to you truly!

monday

so i hate to start off my blog today all excited about something food related BUT alas I have found the bestest pancakes EVER!!
so my girl and i went to Bob Evans yesterday and they have these "Sweet Cinnamon" pancakes-I promise you my tongue was in total ecstasy-i strongly suggest that all of you find a Bob Evans and go try them and if by chance I am visiting you -PLEASE take me!

sooo my weekend was super cool
Friday I went to DC Improv for a comedy show-I had a BLAST-I haven't laughed that hard since, well, either at one of my own funnies or probably laughing at someone that was spawned by a joke from one of my horribly politically incorrect friends/family (ie Kellee)!
but man-it was my first time going to something like that-the comedian was Aisha Tyler-she was a hoot!
Saturday-let's see well the highlight of that day was I made black bean soup for the first time and although I have not tasted it yet-it appears to have come out really good-so we'll see

Sunday I went to church-YES-it was Easter!! But let me tell you why I was a little peeved-all the kids were in church who had CLEARLY gotten Easter baskets overflowing with candy and guess WHO was sitting in church with NO candy-YUP ME!!!
and those little terds did not offer to share AND they all had crunchy candy -my Mom never let me take the loud candy so yes I was sitting in church bemoaning the fact that I didn't have Easter candy-not that I needed for my "Summer 09 body" BUT that's NOT the point!

ummmm yesterday-i went on a self indulgence adventure-so my friend and i went to Bob Evans first (damn did i mention how good those pancakes were) ok then we went to have our toes and nails done. let me tell you how the Vietnamese ladies were about to fight in there-I guess a customer asked if they were talking about her and so the lady jokingly was like yes we are-so the customer is like well where i come from that's considered rude and bad manners-so now they start chattering loudly completely ruining my $25 zen, but alas the lady says she cant take it and leaves which puts the nail tech into a frenzy so it was a lot of yelling and such until the lady leaves, boy i thought it was going to be some ultimate fighter in there-sooooooo then the lady who had been harping on my eyebrows finally convinced me to get them waxed-which i had not had done since 2006-and proud of it-BUT she wore me down and i must admit i do kinda appreciate the clean look instead of looking like ........welll ernie and bert!!

soooo to top off my day of wrong I went to Coldstone Creamery and had more yummy stuff-i will not divulge details!

sooooo that was my weekend-great fun, many laughs, and although i was not with my family on Easter, my girl and I had plenty of fun to make me feel better!!

Happy Monday all!!

friday-mardi gras

let's see for the slacker's who are off today and not because they are overly religious and not devout practitioners-SHAME on you! hehehe the root of my bitterness comes not from the fact that i am at work-although i will not turn down a day off-but more-right nows its 7:27 and i would love to be just flipping over in bed to turn my face away from the sun.-OH WELL-live it up guys!!

man Brandi-you are so my hero-I read your comments-which I must say THANK YOU for following my thoughts, feelings, and venting, BUT who would think that so much time has passed. we were just at Shrine and going through the awkward stages, and in ballet, and now we are "grown ups" that still blows my mind-where did the time go from "having sleepovers" and hanging out at Fairlane to marriage, divorce, and babies?

I still feel like we are 12-ok maybe not 12 that was really awkward times but -you get my drift-I Love You -BMitch!!!

let's see now to address the PSU professor who is probably not even stirring yet-I DO have justified anger and the worst part is based on previous incidents you and the misplaced island high maintenance man barbie (haha DG) will probably log on at some point and taunt me about being at work.

Josh -i won't EVEN begin to talk about you because I have a full mental picture of what your ARSE is doing!!!!

fine-back to work for me-i will carry the burden and find comfort knowing i am glad that there are people like me who despite the day get up and go to work to make this world a better place for those who stay cozy and warm in their bed.

final thought of Friday EVE

Not sure why the educational system is out on Good Friday and the Federal Government is not.

It's not like teachers or professors especially one's a Penn State are going to be at service tomorrow.
So my two SLACKER AWARDS go to Municipal Workers in Newark, NJ and Professors at Penn State!

I feel like I am missing one more person-I wonder if my Floridian import-who has been whining about the Michigan (Auburn Hills mind you ) winter will be most unproductive tomorrow as well.
I promise you when someone finishes law school not sure I will want his services-he's a slacker and too easily distracted by a little 10 degree weather-SUCK IT UP!!!

and i want to give a shout out to all the Dunkin Donut lovers of the world!!
Sorry Krispy Kremers-sucks to be 2nd!!

tomorrow's pre-piss-tovity

tomorrow just FYI-anyone who is NOT at work due to Good Friday-need not EVEN remotely speak or attempt to communicate with me-

i dont want anyone's feelings HURT tomorrow so I am giving out advance notice-particularly to my brother I would appreciate if you would contain your smugness and not call me til like Saturday-nor do I want any pictures of you resting/sleeping/or otherwise SLACKING off!

i think i have expressed my wishes-ABIDE folks ABIDE!

FRIDAY EVE!!!

So i want to give a shout out (can i do that on here) heheh my blog MY way!!-anyway_i want to say thanks to my girl Brandi-she has been reading my lovely little chronicles and responding! love it love it!!
and yes Bean-it is about being rounded and diverse and not stuck inside a bubble of inactivity and the such.
so let's see in my world-first the doctor's office called me back yesterday to say my blood work was good, NO DIABETES, NO SICKLE CELL, and NO HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE-BUT................. my cholesterol was high-so of course now I am overly paranoid and nervous because I have to go back in for a follow up visit, I feel like I am Catholic and going to confession-BUT after a night of mulling it over-I realize what has called my cholesterol's demise...my love make that addiction to CHEESE-damn it!! The colby, the cheddar, the muenster-its so good-so gooey-so tasty-but ALAS no more-back to that big ugly elephant word-MODERATION!
Sighhh -I knew my reign as the cute mouse wouldn't be long!

Let's see I went to see my kids yesterday at the school and without saying too much, something happened with my little boy and his Mom on Monday and there was a bruise and the school social worker so I took some Easter candy and the coolest Match Box Cars that change color in water and some other stuff for my girl, BUT when I got to the door, the teacher was like" put a smile on your face-it's just Ms. April and she is not here to hurt you-she and I are here to help you"..
So that kind of broke my heart-so that was the down of my day-feeling so helpless-its like back when I did my short stint as a social worker and when you first get hit with the realization that you can only do so much, you can't save the world, and there will always be someone who needs your help.

BUT
I always feel like I can do more because there are so many people who don't do anything-so as I climb on my soapbox for a second-if you guys have any free time and its in your heart-donate your time-we get so caught up in the crazy of life and all of our problems-but there are so many people so many KIDS who have it SO much worst that even 1 saturday a month or something would make a difference..

ok to end on another high note-this is for my *diva* TOMORROW is FRIDAY-so let's just cruise through the day-so sweat the small stuff and don't pet the wet stuff (i saw that on a shirt once)

ok later

bagel in my tummy

so today is hump day-so far things are quiet-nothing really exciting to discuss-i havent worked out lately-geez i gotta get it together or i'll look like my brother-hehehe

ok later folks

i'm about to jump off my high horse

if you cant see the whole thing go to MSNBC.com or MensHealth.com


The 19 worst drive-thru foods in America

Fast food is easy on the wallet, but it's no bargain in terms of your health

• Intro • Worst drink • Worst value-menu item • Worst Mexican entree • Worst hot sandwich • Worst crispy chicken sandwich • Worst roast beef sandwich • Worst drive-thru kids meal • Worst chicken strips • Worst drive-thru breakfast sandwich • Worst side • Worst milkshake • Worst potato side • Worst salad • Worst dessert • Worst fish sandwich • Worst cheeseburger • Worst 'healthy' food • Worst grilled chicken • Worst drive-thru meal in America

Burger King Spicy Chick’n Crisp Sandwich 450 calories 30 g fat (5 g saturated fat) 810 mg sodium Lean economic times make the value menu more appealing than ever. And that’s fine—most dollar menus have a few sensible items. But if you eat this sandwich often, saving a few bucks will quickly result in a surplus around your waistline. Eat This Instead! Whopper Jr. without mayo 290 calories 12 g fat (4.5 g saturated fat) 500 mg sodium

quick vent

1 in 5 preschoolers is obese, study finds

Among American Indian children, rate makes surprising jump to one third

ok so why did i just read this article on MSNBC-let me just tell you guys-if you have kids or want kids, do us ALL a favor-make your kids participate in sports and outdoor activities-in my house-Josh and I didn't have video games growing up we had imagination and creativity-NOW granted there are those who question my exceptional level of creativity and imagination and the ability to entertain myself-the bottom line is-childhood was fun-these kids now are SO fat and SO lazy and the parents have just served them the ultimate plate of disservice (is that a word) *oh well* to them!
let's see now your fatty is going to be teased, they will miss out on normal social interactions, and development, and my theory they will either turn into a hermit or serial killer, or pedophile, or hell maybe a combo of all of the above!!
so my public service announcement is sports-its does a body good!

no kid has ever suffered from making friends in a positive environment, learning camaraderie, learning follow through, the team concept, and the ability to work with and depend on others!

geez and i realize every kid will NOT make it to the NFL, NHL, NBA, and WBNA, but the foundation of fitness in the long run will only help not hinder them in the rest of their life

midday

i am so happy i actually had comments on my blog today-thanks guys!! yea
i am happy right now-if i could moon walk without looking suspect i would right now

yes Bean-I mentor kids-I know i know-BUT the thing is our stupid yet fun at the time adventures have left me super strict on my kids-they KNOW i don't play that at all.

plus my kids are 9 and 10-its ironic because my little boy is still kinda innocent-my girl-well not so much :(

I love short people-no worries guys!! I have very few tall friends-maybe 2 I can even think of! So you guys of the shorter persuasion rule!!

in my quest for healthy eating-i just had veggies for lunch stir fried BUT i think there was too much soy sauce so I had to pitch the rest-dang it 6.50 in my trash!

Monday-CONTINUED

so today is monday continued, meaning tuesdays are not close enough to like friday or even hump day so its pretty much monday continued or monday part II!!
i am here-nothing exciting today-hate to whine but my arms are a little sore from the super nurse jabbing me with the needle then trying to move the vein around onto the needle-she said it kept moving so she was moving the needle to find it-and that's what it feels like this morning
so my partner got a new bed and can i just say this thing is SO high that even I, Miss 5'11" has to climb up there-I guess i gained perspective on what it's like to be short (NO OFFENSE anyone)
then i was like-gee what if i roll out -that's a LONG way to the floor-hehehe
but I didn't
so today-nothing exciting thus far-stay tuned and i hope everyone's monday part II is cool!!

signing off

ok to my fans-which is probably just one person (Joshy) mainly because I had to delegate and since we are almost one in the same he would NOT dare turn me down AND I've been good so i'm on his super special list!!!
But ummm i am leaving work for the day-off to see my little mentees and then to get my wig done (THANK GOODNESS) then back to the city for some yummy grub prepared by Chef BoyarCee!! (hahah I made a funny)

Hope everyone has a spectacular day and FYI-people's I like getting comments on my blog soooo MAKE IT HAPPEN

xoxoxo
me

pain-throbbing pain

SO i just left the doctor's office -hmmmm where to start-i have a bandaid on each arm-and my arms hurt!
the PA could not find my tiny veins and then they were doing collapsing and disappearing acts-i was typical me, sweaty palms, and getting woozy-so sad i know!!

but after what seemed like forever-the blood was drawn

its monday and its rainy-nap weather-

monday

well its everyones favorite day of the week!! i had a great weekend-i had out of town guests!!
we went around DC-I wouldn't say we did the "official" tour, but we did a tour.
it was cool we walked around and took pictures, we walked the mall, and even visited the Smithsonian Air and Space Museum-where I got good old astronaut ice cream-YUM!

then my "partner" heheh prepared a wonderful smorgasbord of food, that was quite delectable and filling!
all in all it was a cool weekend-

i'm sitting at my desk now listening to my stomach yell obscenities at me, i have not fed the beast yet, i have to go do blood work at the doctor, SO no food til after-boy i am famished

this week i am saddling back up to hit the gym hard and sweat a bit, the weather is starting to break and well let's just say i want things to be a-ok

on another note-my bestest friend got married last week so congrats to her and her new hubby!!

and to my neglectful brother-i hope you have some good tactics to make it up to me :)
so those are all my thoughts for now

toodles

Venting

ok i am kinda irritated right now because i feel like the women's bathroom is just that a bathroom its not a powder room so these women who go in there to put on their whole face of makeup or misc other things need to either A) do it at home or B) go to the gym where there is a powder room type area or C) remember some people in there are in there to do "their business" and don't want to be rude BUT its a BATHROOM-get a mirror and do whatever you have to do AT your desk not in the bathroom-hell ours is small anyway!

9AM

it's raining-and i just saw lightening and heard the unmistakeably loud growl of thunder-i'm going to see fast and furious after work today...boy if i still had my rumble bee, when things dried out here i would put my Hemi to the test :)

Slacking already

hola folks-so yes i was busy yesterday and did not get a chance to write anything of any significance-not alluding to the fact that my previous post were umm significant BUT let's just pretend for the moment.

so its my favorite day of the work week TGIF TGIF!!!!!!!
Shurony and Anderson are coming to visit me and my partner this weekend-ha-don't you love how me stating partner alludes to some hot lesbian action!! hhehehe JOKES! but yea so we have a weekend of city tours and tasty yummies planned.

I look rough today-I was woken up in such an abrupt manner-I was tricked into believing I was about to be left because of the late hour (4:20AM) and that I was going to have to drive myself-which turned into being a trick to wake me up-but it was cruel and not a good way to wake up someone-so now I look disheveled this morning..

SO....................

Enjoying the afterglow

so its my favorite time of day-LUNCH-yum so i went to the Mongolian grill downstairs and got a ton of broccoli (i feel i may regret this shortly) and water chestnuts and scallops..smells so good -looks even better-tastes-ok...but now i am full and ready to go home

i have a doctors appt today-physical time-hey do they still make grownups touch their toes-i mean i think if i had scoliosis they would know by now PLUS i STILL cant touch my toes-its not because i am not flexible but because i think my arms are out of proportion to my amazingly long gams!!
so i am sure i will make the doctor scratch her head with my list of questions -hhehehe need to make sure i don't have an underlying propensity towards obesity (right Josh!!)
so i guess that's it for the day-i will not be the late night sneaky blogger-
naked blogger?? MAYBE-heheheh just jokes!!

ok til next time
wings, haagen das, and roasted corn, oh and cotton candy

round 2-already

ok ok so i just read someone else's blog (my Joshy) and so now i feel like i am obligated to write some more.

the big 3-and i don't mean the dimensions of my body!! hahah-sorry i never quite deluded myself into thinking i was funny

ok-i currently live in virginia-i will be moving again in december unless well after then i will be in the district of columbia-which sidebar i can't wait for my car insurance to skyrocket when i do

i am still with the same agency that i have been with since i moved out here-government is great-big time security for me these days amidst the poopoo economy

let's see-for those who have been hiding under a rock for the past months-i have been in the most wonderful relationship with an amazing man -he's quite the catch, and i am 110%, unequivocally happy!
it's nice to have someone to do stuff with-not to say i need anyone to complete me, but its nice to do stuff with the opposite sex, and as i look towards my future there are things i want and i need a partner to do them with, although i could always -take the "i am woman-hear me roar" approach and do things solo-but i digressed soooooooooo

oh oh sidebar-i have been recently introduced to Hooters cajun wings-where have they been all my life? i am so mad at all of you for not introducing me sooner-let's just say i was there 3 times within a 9 day span-YUM

ok ok but back to my relationship-its great and this is going to be a good year and 2010 is going to be spectacular

oh i no longer have my beloved yellow ram with my Hemi-i have downsized to a more sensible (according to my Mom-HI MOM) vehicle-a jeep compass and yes it has a back seat AND a smaller engine (dang it)

i am on a workout kick right now-i am having a hard time accepting the fact that I will probably never be my old size 2 again-I have as my Mom calls womanly curves now-ahhhh i want to be skinny again, but healthy-oh well more wings and another donut!!

ok so that's me in a nutshell-
toodles for now

Virgin Blog-the Deflowering!

well this is my very first posting-wow-i feel like i have been in the dark and resisting this thing for awhile.
so today is april fool's day-as a kid i always hated this day-i got teased by people lacking maturity.
hmmm-i am hungry right now and now that i have this platform to run my mouth and express my thoughts i do not have much to say right now..BUT hopefully for those of you who do not talk to me everyday this will be a chance for you to see what i'm doing and where i am.