A day late...but not short

Yesterday was blog day but somehow amidst my day of trying to calculate how I can generate some


extra vacation time and planning a birthday lunch for a colleague


I managed to not blog


I don't have a real topic so let's see what is on my mind


maybe I will just discuss what is going on with me in my world right now


I just returned from Detroit for a fast and furious weekend to celebrate my sisters' bridal luncheon


it's always good to go home


there is nothing like sleeping in my bed


YES I said MY bed


there is nothing like being under the roof with my parents


I feel like I can step out of my mommy role for a minute and just let loose drink wine


and be April


because after all from the moment Grampy picked Jord and I up from the airport


I recognize that it's all about her and they are there to love on her and indulge her


as grandparents do so well


Saturday I sat at the "family" table of the most beautiful women besides my Mom


although technically my Mom was at the table too


As a young woman growing up it is SO key to have the proper role models and mentors


they help guide you and influence you


I sat and looked at my two Moms and surrogate Aunts :Sabrina, Jennie, and Debbie


and thought wow this is the epitome of Essence magazine and beauty inside and out


these women oozed class and classic beauty and elegance


from their well put together appropriate ensembles to their care of themselves and the warmth and


obvious love of their family


leaving the luncheon yes I was excited about my sister's upcoming nuptials


but more than anything I walked away excited to be a woman and loving family


AND seeing women who are all aging yet not aging but doing so gracefully and so well


There were elements of all 5 women that I can weave into my life and into ME


Nothing is more empowering then seeing women who are strong and courageous and who have lived


life but not let life live them


despite different seasons and storms these pillars still are standing


standing with the awe inspiring womanliness that makes me proud to be a woman


Soooo to my Mom, my other Mom and my Aunts..


thank you for being excellent role models and showing me "how it's done"!

Tuesday thoughts

So I get that I'm a little late as usual on music however better late than never

and when it's good it's good

and when its REAL good music it will be good at release and a long time after

 I stumbled upon an album that I had a few songs from but had never listen to the whole thing in entirety 

 

 do you ever have that one album or listen to an album and all of a sudden  memories come rushing back 

 

and it's just one of those feel good albums that make you fall in love

 

 the kind that makes you think of love Jones

 

 when the movie first came out and that feeling that you had 

 

that first love emotion and excitement and newness 

 

 And those emotions and butterflies

 

 well if you have then you know what I'm talking about 

 

and if you have not then you need to get in touch with your emotions

 

 however I was just listening to John legends album (Love in the Future)

 

 and man talk about making you fall in love or want to fall in love 

still not sure how i only ever listened to 3 tracks from that album

this morning i listened from cover to cover

well worth it

Okay-happy Tuesday

All of me...

i started my morning off in a cloud of happiness

despite the grey clouds

looking beyond the inconsistent drizzle of rain

BUT I was happy

I was pensive, reflective, and happy

The reality of going to work was digestible

Found a great parking spot

parallel parked like a BOSS

skipped through puddles of happiness (and water)

all the way inside

my boss delivered some unexpected good news

think $$$$$

BUT right in the midst of my happy

i got pushed off my cloud of giddy

conflict arose

and just like any human

fight or flight kicked in

I dug my heels in

it's easy to go to that place

to hide

to retreat

but sometimes in the midst of conflict

you are reminded

and you refocus

of what is important

and what is not

coming out of that spot

is hard

it goes against our very nature

when our feelings are hurt

when people do not hear our perspective

when we feel our needs are not understood or even just respected

hurt people hurt people

but just like at the end of most good rainstorms

what emerges

but a rainbow

to bring back the smile

to flashback on the happy

to give hope

healing from the storm

and the reminder...


















Loves all of you...ajh

Where are we on "THE DREAM"...

Today we commemorate the life of Rev. Dr. (I can never remember which order those go in) Martin Luther King, Jr and I am greatly going to enjoy my day off...

But I will not take for granted the legacy he left behind, the seeds he planted, and the work that he left for us the next generations both black, white, red, yellow, and all colors in between to carry on

Today particularly on the cusp of the Inauguration of the Nations next President

A man who has propagated so much hate not only during his campaign but even post election

that it begs many to wonder what the next 4 years will look like for our country

Our country was not built on perfection, it was built on the backs of some and many toiled and slaved to simply have a voice

our country was built on divisive measures and segregating ideologies

and in 2017 it would be nirvana to think we have fixed the hurt and eradicated the pain

but we have not

hate and racism is a cancer that spreads into all areas no matter the color and no matter the socioeconomic standing

it is a very numbing not so subtle hand that continues to push and separate many

So today I ask Where are we on THE DREAM??

I think in some arenas we are living the dream

diversity is now a topic and a buzz word...whether it is truly being implemented is a secondary conversation unfortunately and while diversity now has become overly defined to incorporate many ideals that it was not originally birthed to include.... it is still a newly socialized concept

We just had for the past 8 years the first BROWN President of the United States

that is a totally foreign concept ..that is a dream that many never thought they would see

on the flip side, the likelihood of that occurring again is so very slim that it makes me think we are not far enough on the DREAM

The concept of a Minority having power is still not a vision that is held broadly around the good USA

there are many who are all to ready to discount someone still just based on the color of their skin

recently in my own safe suburbia there was a situation at the local Mexican restaurant where a patron left a note for their black server saying "Good Service but we do not tip black people"

This is 2017 -this makes me cry-this makes me scream and it should give everyone else that same reaction..

I could say WOW that someone feels that way, but that is not the alarming part

The piece that pushes me to the point of wanting to scream is that someone felt so BOLD and so EMPOWERED to express WHY they were not going to leave a tip

This is 2017...Where are we on THE DREAM

The fact that since this next President Elect has been identified more and more acts of hate and outright racism have become consistent occurrences in the news tells me

some of us have forgotten THE DREAM

or it was never a DREAM for some..maybe it was a nightmare

BUT if we are ever to be a great Nation

if our societies are ever to come to harmony (and again maybe that is idealistic) we must find our common ground

we must remember we all bleed the same, we all hurt the same, we all feel love, we all feel hate

Just say NO...

Everyone remembers that slogan back in the day

and with the emergence of new drugs and cosmetic drugs

drugs to make you smile

drugs to make you smile....less

drugs for irritable bowels

drugs for antisocial behavior

drugs for overly social behavior

drugs to make you sleep

drugs to keep you awake

and for the criminals and predators...

drugs to make ladies sleep

drugs to make ladies remember nothing

but lets not get distracted...

for the past week i have been dealing with Vertigo and let me just say of all the aches, pains, and illness I have endured THIS one takes the cake

as someone who avoids roller coasters, never reads in a moving car, and always likes to drive in order to avoid that feeling of motion sickness....vertigo is my worst nightmare

i can deal with aches, runny noses, colds, flus, and even allergies BUT

nausea and dizziness take the cake for me

and since that is the heart of vertigo...yea happiness has been upon me

I might even trade this for the runs (just not the runs and trapped in a car)

Now before I sound a little too ungrateful, let me step back and say while yes I have been besides myself in dealing with the no go vertigo, I am grateful mine was not as debilitating as others and I am grateful that when I went to the ER...

I walked in...and out by myself while some others did not

I am grateful for insurance to buy the DRUGS needed to treat my symptoms

but lets rewind to the DRUGS

Vertigo has to correct itself, its an inner ear ...crystal..out of the something (the doctor explained it so eloquently but yea drugs)

However the medicine used to treat the dizzy feeling and stuff ..the ANTIVERT drugs

all i keep hearing in my head is the Dave Chapelle -Cocaine is a helluva drug!!

I took two in the hospital while in a hospital bed and with a great IV pulsing through my arm and i awoke with a heated blanket on me (i LOVE nurses)

and went home....i thought i was going back to work the next day

i took my next dose at the designated time and MAN that was all she wrote..I remembered NOTHING after

*for the concerned parties-I was sure to take it at bedtime so my child was safe and sleep*

I attempted to go to work the one day several hours after taking a dose... my head was in such a fog...

there was such a delay in my thinking and responding

but throughout all of this i kept thinking of roofies and such and wondering if that is what it was like

because i could hear my thoughts but the synapses were firing so slowly it must have been the snail crew

while normally after an illness or injury I can tolerate the best of the best of drugs (minus codine -that too will take me out) but the ANTIVERT (meclavine) is NOT my friend

however which do you pick...the out of body out of mind experience

OR

the world is spinning and won't stop and hey beware of the stairs adventure

Happy Monday to ya!!!

and remember Just say NO to drugs!!!!