day 4

dear diary
yes i am still recovering..now while i cant say the pain has been horrible the lack of eating has been

i like applesauce but really not that much

then again i dont want to aggravate the healing so i am doing what im supposed to

a little birdie reminded me today to drink lots of water which i must admit i was not
but im working on it

i will spare some of the details but its almost like having a cold and having the drainage and stuff BUT you cant clear it because of the throat so its just hanging out

i did take a shower last night so at least im not Stinky
and my coat came in the mail today and my luggage-i feel like i should pack my bag and put on my coat and go sit outside
hhehe
or not

my brother wants to whip me in online scrabble but i feel that since i am ill i shouldnt play-i can hear his sinister cackle over there as his points surpass mine-excuse me for wanting some dignity

part II

so i just had an after thought of something i wanted to share

clearly for my surgery i was given general anesthesia and put to sleep
but as i think about that-its kinda scary..its scary how one minute you are getting wheeled down the hallway on the bed and then they have you slide over to the next table next thing the the anesthesia guy is telling me something is going to sting a bit while his assistant is putting a mask on and telling me to take two deep breaths and yet that's all i can remember and then i am waking up like two hours later in recovery..

thats crazy if you think about it-the power of drugs-the ability to send me to another state of rest and mental absence while they work

and i just realized i had a chest tube-i remember her laying that on my chest when i first got in the room but my last thought was seeing him pushing more drugs in my iv and then the mask

and then i woke up and wanted Ray-im glad its over and thus far the pain has not been the worst as he described it and i hope it just continues to get better-not talking much but im not in a state of complete misery.

and i have purposely avoided my favorite channel FOOD NETWORK-i will not let my tv mom Paula Deen bring me down today-I plan to eat accordingly until I properly heal and so i can prevent pulling off the scab and having bleeding in my throat (SORRY FOR THAT NASTY DESCRIPTION)

but i did manage today to scarf down 2 applesauce cups and tomorrow hopefully i can get some Ben and Jerry's- i was on their website today looking at ALL their wonderful flavors-hmmmm

my whole little body aches-but i know now i wont have any more sore throats and allegedly i'll never snore so WE'LL see!!!!

1st day of recovery

so here i am at home recovering

the pain thus far hasnt been unbearable UNLESS the pain is hiding and gonna kick in anytime

sooo ive had a wonderful man nurse taking care of me

not my mom-but a husband is a good sub

watching BRIDEWARS right now

feeling like i dont have much to say today-soo maybe i will come back a little later with some more to talk about

can ijust say though that Virginia Hospital Center rocks-the staff was incredible the nurses were sweet to me and even when the RN couldnt find my vein at first and instead of repeatedly stabbing me-he tried once and then didnt try again

i try to not get mushy often but my hubs rocked it-he was very sweet and attentive and im so grateful for him

bedside blogger

So today is my last day before the surgery of eating as much as i want and before I have to deal with the reality of the surgery

i am a bit nervous, a bit scared, clearly the idea of being put to sleep is not a warm and fuzzy fantasy

i just hope my hubs knows what he is in for..i will need lots of TLC and nursing-not just the first day but the second as well-so hopefully he's not under the delusion that the next morning he's gonna wake up and leave me and go to work-man oh man

not that i will milk this BUT the last time i was out of it-i didnt have a very attentive nurse so it was not the easiest relaxing recovery

so i am watching National Geographic TABOO and its on Fat and obesity and all i can say is this show is making me hungry-those french fries and Doritos look like the best one i have ever seen

ok but now they just showed the naked body of the 650 pound man-he said they haven't had sex in 10 years, not that that is this man's top priority BUT because he's so large he cant even reach his genitalia so he has to use a catheter..

its easy to judge but as i look at this i feel bad-i feel bad that he is at this point and i feel bad to know how less human he must feel when it takes 6 firefighters to drag him out on a tarp

sooo i will rethink the next time i complain about anything and all the things that i can do


sooo on another note i had a yummy juice today
watermelon, raspberries, apples, and broccoli

tomorrow-APPLESAUCE here I come!!!

back to work eve

another juicing victory under the belt

this little concoction was lots of Kale, kiwi, 2 oranges, half a lime, and sprouts, and half a pear!!!

it was very green very detoxing!! i feel alive ok that sounds like some quack BUT i will say since i started which has only been two days my regular meals i am eating less so i guess in a way its controlling my eating in the sense that i am not voracious and over eating-hmmm we shall see this is just the first few days so i will keep you guys posted after i have done a whole week

so tomorrow is my first day back to work-i hope its not a crazy day-i am aiming for plenty of me time to get my government paperwork caught up......*fingers crossed*

oh and update surgery got moved to monday since my doc went or is leaving for Haiti on Thursday to help those who are in need of more than tonsil slicing

ohhh and i was in my favoritest store today-GO TARGET GO TARGET

was an overall great experience UNTIL we got to the checkout and my husbands cousin was the cashier-this guy looked JUST like Eddie Murphy in coming to America BEFORE he got the haircut ie he had a fro and then a braided tail at the bottom AND to make it better he had to fingerless gloves on (YES the girl kind) one was red and black striped and the other was like silver and blue-
all i kept thinking was Dr. King would NOT be happy!!

sigh SIGH and bigger SIIGHHHHHH

i hate to start the new year off with my old ways BUT i have some great new loves

#1 I am hooked on JUICING-my hubs had a juicer and after trying a Spinach, lime, pineapple one at NATURISTE in Mexico-I AM a believer

the health benefits are remarkable-the concentration of enzymes and goodness are just indescribable (YES I have done my home work)

sooo today I woke up with new zeal in order to make my own...my first one was cucumbers, grapes, apples, and a lemon, and when i say it was YUM it was YUMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!

so in an attempt to keep it going I dragged my butt out the bed on this rainy DC Sunday and drove to the Organic market YES!

I purchased some Kale, some alfalfa sprouts, lime, kiwi, apples, pears, broccoli, and carrots!!! I could not wait to get home to see if this juicing could become a part of me because clearly its a healthier way of life and this year i plan to make some healthy changes #1 cutting back BIG time on my cheese intake-i want my body to be healthy and have energy and a glow and eventually I will I WILL start yoga and just have that OOOMPPH!!!

so I came home took some Kale, some grapes, some sprouts, pear, apple, and a lime!!! let the juicing begin-TWAS delic!!!

Tomorrow-it will be broccoli, kale, kiwi, apple, orange, and maybe a carrot or two!!!

sooo while i am on my new healthier high veggie and fruit kick my evil dark side-whom I will just name she-Josh-well she is watching the 101 CHOWDOWN COUNTDOWN on TRAVEL channel-and can i just say they just made the most delic looking modified pig in a blanket-they took a hotdog sliced it down the middle stuffed in some cheddar and monterey jack cheese then rolled it in the dough and baked-MY EYES were seeing Christmas on the screen-and then there is a place in NYC-DONUT PLANET-need i say more!!

Also watching Booby Flay-Throwdown-they are doing the Manhattan Fish Chowder and Manhattan Clam Chowder-go Bobby go Bobby!!! I need to watch something else but my hand wont allow me to change the channel!!!


sooo i must trudge on-i must do the healthy healthier thing-yoga back to exercising-when i was getting my cardio in i felt better, slept better, and lately i have just been lazy

with my upcoming surgery i am not going to allow this to be a time to just become overly lazy and gluttonous- i am turning this ship around and by golly by spring i will look FABULOUS!!!!

much to blog about nothing

sooooo today has been a pretty chill day-all week i have made a point to follow the advice of someone i know and ditch the pants in the new year and show off my gams..not in a sexual way because clearly i am spoken for but in an appropriate feminine and sophisticated way.

so today is a cream calvin klein cable knit 3/4 sleeve dress and then some chocolate tights that my mommy got me with a diamond patterned design on them and then some chocolate brown riding boots that my personal shopper aka my dad got me a while back...and i put in my gold drop earrings and a bit of gold bronze eye shadow...so yes ive gotten some compliments and my other half REALLY was feeling what i had on today

i like being well put together and not looking like well i got up at 4am so i wore whatever looked comfy

had a yummy delic boca burger for lunch and oatmeal for breakfast now all i need for dinner is a SALAD!!!!

so i am debating on whether or not i should put my BFF up for sale on Craigslist-i yesterday just found the most wonderful mouth treat-the sweetarts gummies and i was SUPER excited and couldnt wait to tell her and when i did SHE ALREADY knew about them-i mean the NERVE-who would hold out something critical like that

soo i have 3 more days til my vacay-cannot wait-sleeping in here i come!!!!

blogging by popular demand

so people are starting to find out around here that i am now MRS CRUMP-i guess i feel more modest about it this time instead of shouting it from the roof tops...i am very excited BUT i think now i dont always want to create a fuss and have people ooing and aahing over me...and yet im the person who AWWW"s to babies and engagements...

i think i like to be the fuss-er and not the recipient unless its my family or those in my intimate circle

so its almost my first full week if being a married lady-wahooooo

ok but back to my favorite topic-i have some new finds -some new loves

#1Two leaves and a bud-Jasmine pearl tea-can you say YUM-it tastes just like the tea at the authentic Chinese restaurants-oh my !!!!

#2-I was never a fan of Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream because I always felt obligated to my Haagen Dazs BUT R and I got some yesterday-i have not tasted it yet but man i am EXCITED

#3-Haagen Dazs-Five ice cream-WHY do they have a flavor called Brown Sugar-i mean are they in my head!!! it makes no sense-i cant find it yet but WOW

so i am going to attempt to do some P90x yoga today-i have not worked out in like 3 months and man oh man it is so evident everyday in everything i do

i want to be healthy this year-i am gearing up for a fabulous year full of lots of love and family time...great things on the horizon!!!

Mama's got a brand new ...NAME!!

SO this is day 4 of being Mrs. April Janelle Crump!!!

I can't say it feels different but it does feel amazing. I feel like we are well on our way now. I feel now as an honest woman-that people aren't looking at me like "OH you are living in SIN"-heheheh

I know its different nowadays and the reasons people co-habitate are different and the stigma has changed but anywho

soooo
the wedding was everything i wanted and needed...i got to new york and i had all these ideas of what i wanted for my SIMPLE/CLASSIC day and come to find out that is the same court house my parents got their wedding license from-love it!!!

but the night before i was on the brink of meltdown-not quite bridezilla although im sure some may object BUT my guardian angel swooped in took my keys-held up lines and other people's appointments to ensure that i was able to take care of all i needed in order to be fabulous for the next morning!!! and to properly seal my evening-I had a Hawaiian Martini-sigh!!!

The day was snowy and very picturesque- I would not have changed a thing! My blue shoes were fab-my Dad dyed them for me and then I added shoe clips-they just popped and made me feel like a sassy princess!

SO now I am basking in the glow and next week is the honeymoon :)

I feel like I should have a lot to write in my blog-I guess my few weeks off have gotten me out of practice-hmmm

sooo this is the new year-new start

im starting the P90X so I can commit to a better body this year!!! I am changing my eating habits and cut out the sweets well maybe just go back to eating in moderation

hmmmm
ok i guess i didnt really feel like sharing today because my thoughts arent flowing

oh but i moved back to my old desk-when i started at my new job i started off at one desk but because of an employee personality flaw she got moved to the quieter seat ie MINE and i had to go sit in the noise-SO when i started i had a brand new desk with nice clean stuff and man oh man when i got back to it today-its SO nasty-
NOW as a germapohobe i have bleached and CLOROX'd and I still dont feel quite comfortable-
like seriously WTF is this in my keyboard-i have been spraying and airblowing and there is STUFF in the keys-YUCK!!! people aught to be ASHAMED!!!!!

ok so I have a few days this week then HONEYMOON-i know i may have mentioned that already BUT i am excited-more days of sleeping late and just having one on one with my husband and without his mistress-MS NFL!!!!! haahah


I think too this time around-I am more appreciative of my husband-YES i just got married BUT im in a totally different place and my perspective has changed as well as my outlook
i look at this as a team effort-i look at everything i do needs to either support or aid my marriage or i dont need to do it..
the big thing for me is my tone and my sometimes overly sharp tongue-a big negative before ...i have learned when you love someone you dont try to hurt them with your words even when you are angry..words and tones DO hurt and you cant take them back..
its VERY easy when we are hurt to lash out and you can't take that stuff back...so my challenge to myself is to take the time to stop breath and respond in a manner that says i am spending the rest of my life with this man and my words should reflect that

there are just more responsible ways to express any concerns or my feelings!

i have come to realize that sometimes people will never see eye to eye but its important to be respectful and mindful of the other persons feelings NO MATTER what im thinking
as long as im not in danger-i need to put the other persons feelings first

so many things i did before that i know now is not ok and was purely destructive

i want a happy loving growing relationship/marriage and just like with any skill you must spend time and focus time on cultivating the marriage/relationship...i like the example of football...the players spend hours and days and months practicing just to play in their games...that's pure entertainment...don't we want to put the same effort energy into the most important thing in our world

because if you dont you will get cut from the team or be like the Lions with the horrible stats

so you can make the best out of a situation...when there is a disagreement instead of stewing and trying to think of retribution why not think of ways to fix it and avoid having it happen again

just a few of my own lessons ive learned and i hope that with those and other ones i can ensure i have a long satisfying marriage with a wonderful man

I love this!!!

the NEW Crump's