5 days til XMAS

SO I am sitting here at work...and because it is like the week of Christmas..the folks are few and far between around here..
it's peaceful and quiet and I am trying to figure out how i can do NOTHING all day long

that would make me happy.. i want to do nothing more than socialize and fraternize

ive been snacking on popcorn for breakfast and my friend brought me a bag of cheetos for a belated bday gift and my other friend got me some glittery BARE ESCENTUALS!!

Yay!!! i can't wait to play in it!!!

so as we converge upon the holiday with 5 days left...have you finished all your shopping...have you taken the time to remember the reason for the season...have you given of yourself beyond what you normally do....have you recognized its not about the material and all about the spiritual and love

love and compassion and tenderness and kindness and generosity ARE what the holiday is about

ask anyone who is sick or older what they would rather have for Christmas....a big shiny wrapped box OR time with loved ones... and i think they would pick TIME

giving of oneself is TRULY the best gift ever...spend time being more affectionate..more physical..(holiday mistletoe sex) sorry i digressed

SO sidebar i have to shout out the best card EVER i received the other day

it goes EVER WONDER WHY CANDLES LOVE BEING ON A BIRTHDAY CAKE
BECAUSE THEY GET BLOWN AND THEN LICKED FROM THE BOTTOM UP

heheheheheh

sorry back to the season
But really instead of spending more $$$$ find an old board game, make some cider, grab your lover, brother, sister, parents-SOMEONE and just talk and enjoy the TIME......






--
april janelle

tuesday..right?

Sitting at my desk trying to figure out how I am still awake..just ate unhealthy food and a piece of cake ..now the famous ITIS is hanging over my shoulder

 

I know I can be talkative BUT there are some people who just chat and chat and you don’t know what the hell they are talking about

And I hate when people whisper..my hearing sucks with quiet noises so I just look at you blankly

 

Its only 11:35-damn it

I want to send a shout out to the 12/14 birthday folks!!

 

Tonight is my friend Kelley’s bday celebration-MORE food!!! I am going to have to fast tomorrow

 

Ok I cant think straight I am so sleepy

 

almost Christmas

So we are rapidly approaching “THE DAY”-NO not my birthday although yes that is Thursday-it seems like it takes FOREVER for my birth month to arrive but when it does-its all fast forward!

 

I am talking about Baby Jesus’ birthday-the reason for the season –it’s so crazy to me how the Christmas image you have as a child and how you are out of school for many days and the staying up late and sleeping in..very quickly comes to an abrupt halt as an adult…they don’t tell you that before you graduate college..I feel like there should be a special class that prepares you for some realisms of the world of grown up ness!

 

 

Ok YES you can stay up late and do what the hell you want BUT if you have a job…it’s gonna SUCK working on 0 hours of sleep and you can’t call in EVERY Monday

 

YES-you can go drink BUT hangovers at work with annoying coworkers-NOT a fun day

 

You will make more money YES ….BUT you will also have MORE bills and responsibilities

 

So yes you will have vacation time BUT it is not the same as FREE time when you are in school

 

As an adult THERE IS NO SUMMER VACATION-summer vacay becomes defined as the time when you take more than one day off on top of a long weekend

 

You also start to REALLY think about and debate the hours you do take off from work

 

YES you can have all the company you want BUT you have to clean it up

 

YES you can date whoever you want BUT you will date some crazies and losers and people with habits and weird idiosyncrasies that are HORRID

 

 

Back to 12/25-Christmas yes you can buy better gifts and do cool things BUT when you are an adult and with the exception of teachers who fall exempt to most of these rules…you work up until like Christmas Eve (NEVER knew that as a kid)  I ASSUMED everyone was off-and you have to take your ass back in BEFORE New Year’s

 

 

Being an adult can make holidays sweeter YET zap all the magic at the same time

 

 

somber thoughts

So there are a few moments in my life when I pause and really reflect and am bothered by a few things

#1 obesity…Obesity amongst kids

#2-smokers

#3-the education system and DUMB kids who are dumb because of the lack of stimulus and structure

#4-healthcare-seeing those that need it most not be able to afford it

#5 old people

#6 poor people (and I’m talking living below poverty-eating cat food or not eating at all poor)

 

And HOMELESS people IN THE WINTER

 

*this list is in NO ORDER*

 

Now I have expressed before my disdain for the DC homeless people and my annoyance with some of their boldness

But there is something oh so sobering when I get in my car to come to work at 5:30AM and I look down at my temperature gauge and read that it’s 27 degrees and I shiver yet know my heat will be on in my car in like 5 minutes

And then I look around and see people laying/sleeping on the ground outside unsheltered

I think to myself wow and it makes me sad..

I was just into my second verse of “Oh Holy Night” and I thought how can I blare my happy magical happy place music while there are people out here who

 

I cranked the heat up in the house last night yet there are people who don’t have shelter

 

I understand there are some people who CHOOSE to live the transient life but there are some people who are victims of their own poor planning, bad choices, or sometimes just life.

 

When I am thinking it’s too cold to get naked for a shower I need to remember there are people who LIVE outside

And I can’t imagine shivering to sleep every night or if you even get to sleep

 

Yes there are shelters and lots of resources to aid, but it does not ever stop humbling me for a moment to make me realize how BLESSED I am

 

And during this season it is very easy for us to see what others have that we don’t or to feel bad about our circumstance whether money is tight, whether we are between jobs, BUT please stop and remember that you HAVE more than many many others

 

 

There is always someone in a worst situation and YES that may sound like crummy advice, BUT ask yourself..did you eat last night…do you sleep somewhere warm..do you have people that love you…do you have people who would help you in a heartbeat…if you can answer YES than your life is rich……

 

 

So while in the summer the homeless are the cause of my bitching and eye rolls…in the winter my heart goes out…because I have been cold in Michigan (from lack of preparedness) and it’s not a good feeling…it hurts..its numbing…so to be in a perpetual state

I cannot imagine and I’m sure NONE of them thought their life would be that way

 

 

OMG-it's MONDAY!

10 days until my birthday and 19 days until Christmas!

 

Wow where does the time go!

 

So I am at work with my new hair…people seem to be utterly amazed at the length of my hair..someone asked if it was a wig...AS IF!

 

 

My buddy Andrea by my old desk helped me out and flat ironed it a bit this morning at her desk..lol I know ONLY us!

 

But I do like that I have a completely different look now…my buddies Shay and Nicole and I have decided to skip the annual holiday party and go have our own at PF Changs….well actually as we speak that may be getting cancelled…Nicole will be off

 

I am still loving the P90x-I did the plyometrics last night…kicked my tail and I still watched the last 15 minutes of the hour….

I am more excited to see the final product….if my body is amazing…..i feel bad for anyone who knows me because clothing will not be optional for me LOL

 

I don’t have any rants yet..it’s a pretty good day so far….although my other half is at home and his dog was SO very excited this morning when she saw my coat and then saw her Daddy and realized he would be home with her all day meaning no basement time ….she was like an excited puppy..she didn’t even care that I was leaving for work..typical little brat

 

Tomorrow is the capital tree lighting..i love that tradition

 

I have been listening to my 24/7 Christmas music station..it put such a smile on my face…I just hate that I feel this time of year goes by SO quickly…it’s the most magical time for me and I love it but it seems to be on fast forward

 

 

Oh and I lost 3 pounds!

Lol just had to throw that in J

 

Ok sorry for the bad blog…I just couldn’t get it together J

pet peeves

So I may cop to being MANY bad things ANAL being one

However, I just want to say for a minute there are some things that I think you guys may agree too

 

At work we have a instant messenger that we all use and abuse to communicate without getting off our arses or so we can pretend to be friendly and social but really aren’t

 

So  there are some IM stalkers I feel..they just wait for your name to go green (indicating you are available) and they just spring into conversation

 

NOW I can do that to my husband and a few select 2 people. BUT there is someone and this person is my buddy YES who is like my IM stalker..the moment I sign back in they are waiting to send messages as if I don’t want to get back to my seat and get settled

 

Maybe that is more of personal annoyance BUT it’s driving me NUTS!

 

And there is someone else who drops by and she is a chatty Cathy I mean I like to talk but I don’t forget I am at work and let’s keep it brief

 

And people who crack themselves  up BEFORE they finish the story that annoys me especially because I have a dry sense of humor and usually am not entertained easily

My besty KS is pretty darn hilarious BUT she is dry and sarcastic and it warms my heart!

 

 

FYI I am still kicking butt with my eating and working out and last night I did the P90X –Cardio X-all I can say is that is NO JOKE

I thought I was getting over because the DVD I was supposed to do was 67 minutes and the P90X was 43min…well I sweated like a crack head and at the end when there was mat exercises I laid down and ole Bella pranced herself up from the basement where she WAS with her daddy and laid on me and I had no energy to move her 50 pound self off of me SO we watched the last 3 minutes together

 

 

I looked in the mirror later to assess the progress on the body and I am quite pleased with where things are going and if I stand up really straight it elongates my torso making my ribs more pronounced and they can substitute the 6 pack that I don’t have

 

I’m sitting here as we speak eating a salad which consists of lettuce, cucumbers, a little cheese, and a ton (and I mean a ton as in I overdid it) of black beans

 

Black beans are very filling might I add..

 

Tonight is supposed to be gym night but I made trade it for another night of P90X-my body is sore but man it hurts SO good!

 

 

friends

We all love our friends and our true friends we value their opinions and trust them.

 

Sometimes our friends get a bit caught up in pushing their advice a bit hard and forget to just love and support us.

 

We confide in our friends and tell them our dirt, we share when we are angry, we share when we are elated and overcome….but I think the test of a true friend is to sometimes just stand by you and listen or understand

 

Like if I know your opinion on something and it is not the same as mine..short of me contemplating something crazy or harmful…you do not have to reiterate your opinion over and over

 

If we disagree that is fine but there is tact to soliciting your opinion, oh geez now I wonder if that is how Josh feels whenever I try to help him navigate his life

IM SORRY JOSH! IM SORRY

 

It is everyone’s nature that has breasts to want to help and fix things as we see it and it is really hard to set back and let someone else make choices and figure out things for them self-we see the mistakes they will make

But in life sometimes the greatest lessons and most beautiful things come out of mistakes

 

 

I will work on that…starting today.. I know it’s not pretty and having just really gotten a close hand look at it-I do NOT want to be that person on my soap box mic in hand trying to be a dictator