SO this is day 4 of being Mrs. April Janelle Crump!!!
I can't say it feels different but it does feel amazing. I feel like we are well on our way now. I feel now as an honest woman-that people aren't looking at me like "OH you are living in SIN"-heheheh
I know its different nowadays and the reasons people co-habitate are different and the stigma has changed but anywho
soooo
the wedding was everything i wanted and needed...i got to new york and i had all these ideas of what i wanted for my SIMPLE/CLASSIC day and come to find out that is the same court house my parents got their wedding license from-love it!!!
but the night before i was on the brink of meltdown-not quite bridezilla although im sure some may object BUT my guardian angel swooped in took my keys-held up lines and other people's appointments to ensure that i was able to take care of all i needed in order to be fabulous for the next morning!!! and to properly seal my evening-I had a Hawaiian Martini-sigh!!!
The day was snowy and very picturesque- I would not have changed a thing! My blue shoes were fab-my Dad dyed them for me and then I added shoe clips-they just popped and made me feel like a sassy princess!
SO now I am basking in the glow and next week is the honeymoon :)
I feel like I should have a lot to write in my blog-I guess my few weeks off have gotten me out of practice-hmmm
sooo this is the new year-new start
im starting the P90X so I can commit to a better body this year!!! I am changing my eating habits and cut out the sweets well maybe just go back to eating in moderation
hmmmm
ok i guess i didnt really feel like sharing today because my thoughts arent flowing
oh but i moved back to my old desk-when i started at my new job i started off at one desk but because of an employee personality flaw she got moved to the quieter seat ie MINE and i had to go sit in the noise-SO when i started i had a brand new desk with nice clean stuff and man oh man when i got back to it today-its SO nasty-
NOW as a germapohobe i have bleached and CLOROX'd and I still dont feel quite comfortable-
like seriously WTF is this in my keyboard-i have been spraying and airblowing and there is STUFF in the keys-YUCK!!! people aught to be ASHAMED!!!!!
ok so I have a few days this week then HONEYMOON-i know i may have mentioned that already BUT i am excited-more days of sleeping late and just having one on one with my husband and without his mistress-MS NFL!!!!! haahah
I think too this time around-I am more appreciative of my husband-YES i just got married BUT im in a totally different place and my perspective has changed as well as my outlook
i look at this as a team effort-i look at everything i do needs to either support or aid my marriage or i dont need to do it..
the big thing for me is my tone and my sometimes overly sharp tongue-a big negative before ...i have learned when you love someone you dont try to hurt them with your words even when you are angry..words and tones DO hurt and you cant take them back..
its VERY easy when we are hurt to lash out and you can't take that stuff back...so my challenge to myself is to take the time to stop breath and respond in a manner that says i am spending the rest of my life with this man and my words should reflect that
there are just more responsible ways to express any concerns or my feelings!
i have come to realize that sometimes people will never see eye to eye but its important to be respectful and mindful of the other persons feelings NO MATTER what im thinking
as long as im not in danger-i need to put the other persons feelings first
so many things i did before that i know now is not ok and was purely destructive
i want a happy loving growing relationship/marriage and just like with any skill you must spend time and focus time on cultivating the marriage/relationship...i like the example of football...the players spend hours and days and months practicing just to play in their games...that's pure entertainment...don't we want to put the same effort energy into the most important thing in our world
because if you dont you will get cut from the team or be like the Lions with the horrible stats
so you can make the best out of a situation...when there is a disagreement instead of stewing and trying to think of retribution why not think of ways to fix it and avoid having it happen again
just a few of my own lessons ive learned and i hope that with those and other ones i can ensure i have a long satisfying marriage with a wonderful man
