So today is my last day before the surgery of eating as much as i want and before I have to deal with the reality of the surgery
i am a bit nervous, a bit scared, clearly the idea of being put to sleep is not a warm and fuzzy fantasy
i just hope my hubs knows what he is in for..i will need lots of TLC and nursing-not just the first day but the second as well-so hopefully he's not under the delusion that the next morning he's gonna wake up and leave me and go to work-man oh man
not that i will milk this BUT the last time i was out of it-i didnt have a very attentive nurse so it was not the easiest relaxing recovery
so i am watching National Geographic TABOO and its on Fat and obesity and all i can say is this show is making me hungry-those french fries and Doritos look like the best one i have ever seen
ok but now they just showed the naked body of the 650 pound man-he said they haven't had sex in 10 years, not that that is this man's top priority BUT because he's so large he cant even reach his genitalia so he has to use a catheter..
its easy to judge but as i look at this i feel bad-i feel bad that he is at this point and i feel bad to know how less human he must feel when it takes 6 firefighters to drag him out on a tarp
sooo i will rethink the next time i complain about anything and all the things that i can do
sooo on another note i had a yummy juice today
watermelon, raspberries, apples, and broccoli
tomorrow-APPLESAUCE here I come!!!
