I have the ultimate headache this morning-
i have a bunch of random thoughts in my head-so here goes
well first i went to church yesterday-a new church-i liked it and part of the message was on being humble and it says putting God first then others and self last-so i wonder how many people really do that-when most people put self first and try to follow self preservation and blah blah-or how often do people perceive they are putting others first when in reality they are still satisfying their own self interests
i had like 3 things bothering me-3 different complexes
the first is the "bad relationship drama-yet i do the same thing time after time expecting a different result"
its like come on now MAYBE you need to try something different MAYBE you need to look at you BUT then again we never can see our own flaws-
now i am not on my soapbox really i promise but we are never really truly honest with ourselves we just arent
then its the whole " i can get mad and behave anyway i like and then in the morning when i feel better you have to feel better too" there are people who need to vent and there are people who need to sleep it off unfortunately the sleep its offs do not realize no matter how many times-that when they go to sleep it off and ignore the person who needs to vent they only make it worst and in the morning there is not calm there is a brewing storm-but hey maybe thats the person who vents personal problem-maybe they are the selfish one
and my 3rd is people who aer so self righteous and so controlling that they think they can control love and life-its like a big chess game and they somehow in their screwed up logic think they can dictate and regulate all the actions of the people on the board
instead of realizing what a gift love and life is and just enjoying it-they spend all their time being the masters of their own demise-what idiots-we have all been hurt before but you know what you get up you brush yourself off and keep going you dont let love become a crippling disease
there are too many things in life there are far worst for us to all wallow in our self pity-im sick of the shit
you have a job, you have a roof over your head-lets count how far ahead you are with just those simple things-there are people with no jobs hell no food, no place to go, no chance to survive and yet we worry about some silly shit and have multiple tvs, toys, and outlets
the nerve-its like get over yourself and quick-yes money is always a stressor for MOST people but hell there are people with absolutely NONE-do you want to switch places....people act stupid and get all caught up and fixated on one person hell at least you have the freedom to go find someone else at least you are free to love and not worrying about war and weather you are even going to wake up the next day
so my point is folks to put your life in perspective and think about what really is important and before you bitch and moan about how rough you have it turn on the news and get a reality check, were you in Ft. Hood? are you in Iraq? quit your crying and do something about it
