dear diary,
this morning my mom returned to Detroit leaving me and her grandbaby teary eyed and feeling a serious sense of empty
i love my mom-i love her so much more as an adult and now as a mom
but this past week has been surreal and so amazing
having her here and then with me in W. VA with Jord
i have such an appreciation for her BUT at the same time it makes me realize how when you have a village or just having more than 1person around you-life can be so joyous and rich
hearing Jord and Gigi laugh and laugh and debate and negotiate warmed my heart in ways I can't fully articulate
i miss my mom
i can't deny it, 33 and i feel like she just left me at VBYC for a week in the sumer
as a result, Jord and i came home and slept the morning away and then we did what we knew how to do in order to soothe our aching hearts
laid around and cuddled
eventually i got up and threw myself into my child and let her go out and play and ride her bike, but it kept coming back to missing Gigi
normally i enjoy VA and our princess palace but right now i would trade this place for the comforts of my 15427 home and all the love that is there-every time and any time
second thought-today is my other half's anniversary and i want to say i love you and i am so happy for you
i am wishing you a lifetime of many mores and anniversary after anniversary
i am grateful to have a front row seat in your life and watching your family grow and life change and grow us
i love our past and i love our present and i am pretty sure our future will be such as wonderful
i wouldn't and couldn't ask for a better person to share my brain and my thoughts and who gets me and my emotions
i love you for understanding and getting me
we have proved that relationships based in love and good communication and mutual respect can stand the test of time and here we are 33 years strong
no one else has weathered the seasons and storms of life and still been there with me loving me and laughing with me *besides my parents and some family
third thought: people show you how they feel about you truly based on the things spoken and the things not spoken
fourth thought -tomorrow starts my spring cleanse as i once again reach inside of me for discipline and strength as i say no to processed foods and sugars and get back to eating good and feeling better..
i can't wait to put on my bikini for Vegas..let the transformation begin :)
Happy Sunday all
